Xanga helped me alot through my middle school years. I miss the days where it was easy just to come on here and completely pour out everything that was on your mind and heart in this little "blogger" and all of a sudden you felt better. I miss that.

I have alot of complications in my heart and head right now. I wish I could sort them all out and place them on a shelf so I can pick one out at a time and work through them. But no, they're all mashed together in one big Confusion.

I miss him.. He has a large part of my heart and I have his.. Why did I do it?!

I will see you in seven days. What will my heart think of that? Will feelings burst into flame again? I don't want them to...
Because, you see, I have him.. And I care about him so much...

I want you back in my arms, back to where you belong..

 

[p.s. keep xanga alive]

"We need people who will be hardcore at being compassionate, loving, and meeting needs.
            Music has been an incredible tool.  God created it, and we used it.  We sucked the marrow out of it- we really did, every ounce, man, to the very end- and it was great.  I want kids to have that opportunity to live like we lived and like we're living now, to stick it out there and go for it.  Live in a van for a while or live in a shack in a Third World country.  Life is too short to sit in a pew."
- Mark Stuart, Audio Adrenaline

The Church has become too comfortable in their cozy little American homes. They're afraid to get out there and get dirty. We need to change this feel-good-selfish world. We're the generation that'll make it happen. Let's be a revolution. The Revolution.

as many of you know, I went to Minnesota over the weekend.  A very heartwarming/heartcrushing trip. I saw my love, Luke, but all it did was make me more miserable than before because I can seriously never see him...  And I really don't think feelings are mutual. At all.  But it really was amazing to see a good handful of Northern Pines people. I miss them all dearly. If they ever read this, much love to Sarah Bremer, Luke Spangrud, Tony Wilson, Blake Olsen, Hannah Johnson, Levi Spangrud, and Kayla Kallman!!  I love you guys way too much.

So I saw on Julia's xanga that she had a very intelligent way in summing up the year of the 2006. I shall do the same.

January- got tickets to Relient K on March 28. Was still with Abe. [[weeeiird]].
February- ......................
March- went to Relient K @ the Barrymore Theatre and really discovered The Rocket Summer and House Of Heroes!! And not to mention I MET RELIENT K. And Matt Thiessen sang to me. And gave me his water bottle. Mmmm a very merry night.
April- ... Easter?
May- my birthday. "Hands lost virginity." Lame qoute.
June- Kanakuk!! BLOB BOY!! ha ha ha!
July- Went to Lifest and saw so many beloveds... Relient K, TobyMac, Audio A, The Fold, Hawk Nelson, and many many more.... And I met Toby (again) and this meeting led him to remember me later on....
NORTHERN PINES as well. Met the love of my life.
August- depressing. Swim started. Yuck.
September- started "real school". lots and lots and lots of swimming.
October- 14- AUDIO ADRENALINE!! Met my 2nd love, Mark Stuart, plus the other members of AA. Love 'em to DEATH and am sooo sad to see them go...
November- Swim ended, and POWER OF ONE!!! TobyMac remembered me (about time!) and told me he was already booked for Cornerstone!  Looooove.
December- Saw Evan. Ha ha. Christmas: got tickets to Relient K for March 23!!! And saw the love of my life again, along with other amazing NP peeps. LOOOVEE

 

Here's to the new year. *cheers*